Absolute Truth

To hold an “absolute” worldview… to accept, and to be dominated by, the purely rationalistic approach to life… the approach that there is an absolute right and wrong, that words have an absolutely specific meaning, that there is one absolute and specific truth (one that can be fully defined by language)… is related to the fear of freedom and the fear of death.

It is related with the tendency to “grab” and hold—to own—the truth… to grab reality, to grab the moment, to grab the life that flows… to grab your sense of self as something immovable, self-sufficient and self-defined, eternal (and, thus, it is also related to narcissism)…

It is related to the never-ending pursuit for power: owning it and being able to use it to always protect yourself… with the refusal of the inevitability of death… with the, perhaps unacknowledged, wish for immortality…

It is related with the subconscious need for the existence of specific rules which, if you discover and follow them, will lead you to success. With the tendency to search for the truth “out there”, as some “thing” that exists in the “objective world”. With the need to rely on something objective and, thus, something external… albeit some “thing” that is immovable, fully graspable… some thing that does not have a will of its own, that does not have a will independent of yours, and, therefore, some thing that allows you to feel you are in full control of every decision and of the course of your life, and, thus, to feel you are fully independent, fully self-sufficient, fully self-defining (which again relates to narcissism which, ironically enough, is a result of unacknowledged dependence on others)…

Ironically enough, while focusing on discovering and following the external rules that will lead you to ultimate success (to ultimate perfection, even), you in fact lose the ability—the freedom—to play with the rules of the game… you don’t get to participate in shaping the world you live in, to directing its course… you don’t assume the ultimate—the fundamental—responsibility for your decisions, for your very existence…

While holding yourself to be the only master of your own life and completely untethered of any external control, you bound yourself to externally-imposed boundaries… while holding yourself entirely independent,  you you remain a child, not yet actually independent, not yet an actual adult, still looking outside for directions…

Perhaps it is also related to the tendency to avoid digging deep inside and facing—turning your gaze and looking into the eyes of—your deeper essence… to the fear of letting go of your ego, of recognizing your deep dependence on everything around you… of recognizing the inherent lack of control of your own life…

Paradoxically, it is the change of stance which is defined by letting go of your absolute self-sufficiency and self-determinacy… by submitting to an external power (rather than just exploring and navigating a given, static map)… by sacrificing your identification with your ego… by accepting the transience of existence… that leads to freedom.

The orientation towards “absolute truth” is the fundamental defense mechanism of the ego. It stems from the inability to tolerate suffering… the inability to accept the pain, the misery, the insecurity and the uncertainty… the inability to accept the world with its flaws.

It is the denial of radical transformation. The denial to enter into the flow by the only way possible: by becoming it…